Extracts from the past

I end up with the desperate need of having someone to talk to or to listen. In the middle of the catharsis, I get disturbed by the emptiness in my life . This feeling knocks on the door of my hollow heart every single time ; I need a friend- a genuine friend again. "Or may be I just want one", I question myself till I get back to sleep ..but sometimes it turns into a cruel noise.

I don't think its just me who feels that way and its not abnormal in any way..

I think this need of ours could have been fulfilled if one maintained a relationship with one's self.

Nobody else can do this to ourselves..

No-one knows you better..

& if you don't, no-one else can..

I cant stress this enough!

Whenever I feel this , it hurts me to acknowledge that I need to befriend myself.

How to do that? Well ,It's what we do for others and the people we love ,everyday. We need to support ourselves too(if we really love ourselves too)..

when a friend feels lonely* we tell them kind words, pour attention, inquire whether they're ok, advise to go out and all, have fun more, hang out, we help them in being positive, we tell them we're here..

I mean we don't just tell to stop feeling that way?

Why do we tell ourselves that??? 

Why not accept and befriend.

We can't ask our soul to mingle with other souls outside and figure it out, when we feel lonely. But we can fill them with the positivity or soul food; self awareness and preservance. 

Thats also where god comes in-its a spiritual realm but regardless we all have our own journeys.  Remember when it knocks again, do embrace the thought! Make yourself your friend. It's been too long and you're no tyrant.

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If its that simple why don't we?

The truth is we'll never embrace ourselves or befriend because we know deep down that it might take sometime and effort .We are so intoxicated by the instant gratification mechanisms in our modern tinders that we see *knowing ourselves* as a waste of our time.We have our cheerleaders and we pay them cash, attention , affection you name it! Swipe and they save time. Like fast food, we want and get a hot, sealed, happy meal from ; drive-through built right across our work places and homes.. No time for catharsis. We have to get on with our lives..we have our needs, wishes and our projects, we as citizens  prioritize the projects and see others as one too..

Manufactured love- an industry where people connect others,people have their pitches and relationships and in-turn profits the industry financially. imagine telling someone centuries ago that an industry would be made to provide love too like clothes or food *things*; tinder, and other dating apps .

we love abstract art? we find them rare.and today abstract is..Everyone has a price, we took it way more seriously! and those lucky ones who think that this isnt there issue yet-arent you sick of being chased as if you're a prize or just chasing ? thats materialism too. Humans don't have a price tag-Naturally and Normally. but which brings me back to self love when was the last time you saw yourself as a prize in your own eyes?

Cheers to our *so called* modern lives, drives or drive-through.